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Point Vierge
Martha Crawford Martha Crawford

Point Vierge

Then one by one they wake up and become birds. They manifest themselves as birds, beginning to sing. Presently they will be fully themselves and even fly.

~ Conjectures of a  Guilty Bystander, Thomas Merton

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A Common Center
Martha Crawford Martha Crawford

A Common Center

Healthy community groups are circles of peers who (metaphorically) stand around a common center – a cause, a value, a belief system, an identity, a mission, a challenge, a shared story, or experience. The center is their shared concern, the deeper purposes of their gathering together.

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New Instruments
Martha Crawford Martha Crawford

New Instruments

The reverberations bring about a change of being.

~ Gaston Bachelard, The Poetics of Space

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A Mother’s Curse
Martha Crawford Martha Crawford

A Mother’s Curse

Progenitors, creators and the earth have been too patient for far too long.

Beware a Mother’s Curse.

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A glimpse
Martha Crawford Martha Crawford

A glimpse

We exalt the Explicit, we idolize the seemingly permanent.

We underestimate the power of the implicit.

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Trivial Pursuits
Martha Crawford Martha Crawford

Trivial Pursuits

One can try to think, feel, experience and communicate everything, but the moment such expressions see the light of day they are robbed of their significance and meaning and are thrown in the dump. - Dorothee Soelle

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Our Temptations
Martha Crawford Martha Crawford

Our Temptations

The virulent demons that are inhabiting you are not grotesque little monsters with thrashing tales. They are illusions, stories you are telling yourself that are utterly fallacious; bizarre and fantastic lies which you nevertheless believe, and which consequently are taking your life from you.

~ Martin Bell, The Way of the Wolf

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Waiting For the Miracle: On Chronicity and Psychotherapy
Martha Crawford Martha Crawford

Waiting For the Miracle: On Chronicity and Psychotherapy

The query I am sitting with focuses on the challenges of chronic conditions, about how/if psychotherapists can identify “progress” in such cases, how we assess if the lack of “progress” is a treatment failure, and how we manage our own responses to chronicity when we encounter it in our work lives.

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What is Death?
Martha Crawford Martha Crawford

What is Death?

Maybe this was the moment I could have helped her avoid some of the suffering that was to come. Maybe if we had done this work together, it would have been less terrifying for her to let go, and she wouldn’t have been trapped for so long.

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A Communion of Saints
Martha Crawford Martha Crawford

A Communion of Saints

You are who happened to you.

I’ve buried many of people I’ve been closest to. Maybe it’s actually dangerous to be my friend (I have considered this and ruled it out for the most part).  Or maybe those of us who have lived in various kinds of danger find each other and we don’t always make it through, or we die much later of wounds we thought were nothing at the time.

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