Chapter Seven: A Mother Instead

So here I am,  - I keep showing up at this church, while I’m trying to sort what happened to my family, realizing how little I knew about Father’s life before or after the seven years of chaos he inflicted on our household.  I can go back into a traditional church because by now  the intense “post-traumatic/spiritual abuse” emotional charge has been drained enough for me to discern what I may have cherished there, what I lost, what I still yearned for, what I might need, what I reject, what has died, and what is entirely uninteresting to me.